Carrying my own weight.


Often, when we are on the brink of greatness and self-realization, the mind is tested, and doubt can settle in.  I have decided to follow a dream that  will move me to the opposite coast of the country. I was forced to cut all the extra dramatics of my life, and actually analyze what it is that I want from my life. Thoughts like these bring fear. My greatest fear is watching my life go by, knowing that I never truly tried to achieve my dreams. I prayed to God, “If I could find a cheaper place to live, I could save to move to California.” I was offered a place to live that provided a three-hundred dollar break from my usual rent. Then, I asked God if I could have two jobs to double my income, and after two months of background checks and constant calling, I was hired in as a manager at a new company. I asked God for a vehicle so I could get around easier and save on transportation fare, and people were placed in my life who took the time to aid me in finding  a vehicle.  There are those who do not believe in a higher power and just believe in coincidence and fate. There is a God who is watching over me. During the summer of 2010, I traveled to Los Angeles, with my first cousin and fell in love with the city. I sat next to a beautiful model who had won many beauty contests and she told me how great the city was. I saw her pictures and knew that I had dreamed of modeling more than just  bathing suits. I wanted to create characters that require talent to create. My tiny circle came to my rescue in the last few months while I experienced many self-inflicted doubts and set-backs and encouraged me to go fulfill my dream. Mama believes. My true friends believe. My true love believes. I cannot be stopped by fear, the fear that I create. Everything that I put my mind to can become a reality. My cousin and I have agreed to make this trek together, and I must ignore the nay-Sayers and eye-rollers. As a little girl, warm in my bed, I would dream about an opportunity such as this. I must try. I will try.
darling, domo


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